牡丹的拒绝

它被世人所期待、所仰慕、所赞誉,是由于它的美。

它美得秀韵多姿,美得雍容华贵,美得绚丽娇艳,美得惊世骇俗。它的美是早已被世人所确定、所公认了的。它的美不惧怕争议和挑战。

有多少人没有欣赏过牡丹呢?

却偏偏要坐上汽车火车飞机轮船,千里万里爬山涉水,天南海北不约而同,揣着焦渴与翘盼的心,涛涛黄河般地涌进洛阳城。

欧阳修曾有诗云:洛阳地脉花最重,牡丹尤为天下奇。

传说中的牡丹,是被武则天一怒之下逐出京城,贬去洛阳的。却不料洛阳的水土最适合牡丹的生长。于是洛阳人种牡丹蔚然成风,渐盛于唐,极盛于宋。每年阳历四月中旬春色融融的日子,街巷园林千株万株牡丹竞放,花团锦簇香云缭绕——好一座五彩缤纷的牡丹城。所以看牡丹是一定要到洛阳去看的。没有看过洛阳的牡丹就不算看过牡丹。况且洛阳牡丹还有那么点来历,它因被贬而增值而名声大噪,是否因此勾起人的好奇也未可知。

这一年已是洛阳的第九届牡丹花会。这一年的春却来得迟迟。连日浓云阴雨,四月的洛阳城冷风嗖嗖。街上挤满了从很远很远的地方赶来的看花人。看花人踩着年年应准的花期。明明是梧桐 发叶,柳枝滴翠,桃花梨花姹紫嫣红,海棠更已落英缤纷——可洛阳人说春尚不曾到来;看花人说,牡丹城好安静。一个又冷又静的洛阳,让你觉得有什么地方不对劲。你悄悄闭上眼睛不忍寻觅。你深呼吸掩藏好了最后的侥幸,姗姗步入王城公园。你相信牡丹生性喜欢热闹,你知道牡丹不像幽兰习惯寂寞,你甚至怀着自私的企图,愿牡丹接受这提前的参拜和瞻仰。

然而,枝繁叶茂的满园绿色,却仅有零零落落的几处浅红、几点粉白。一丛丛半人高的牡丹植株之上,昂然挺起千头万头硕大饱满的牡丹花苞,个个形同仙桃,却是朱唇紧闭,洁齿轻咬,薄薄的花瓣层层相裹,透出一副傲慢的冷色,绝无开花的意思。偌大的一个牡丹王国,竟然是一片黯淡萧瑟的灰绿……

一丝苍白的阳光伸出手竭力抚弄着它,它却木然呆立,无动于衷。

惊愕伴随着失望和疑虑——你不知道牡丹为什么要拒绝,拒绝本该属于它的荣誉和赞颂?

于是看花人说这个洛阳牡丹真是徒有虚名;于是洛阳人摇头说其实洛阳牡丹从未如今年这样失约,这个春实在太冷,寒流接着寒流怎么能怪牡丹?当年武则天皇帝令百花连夜速发以待她明朝游玩上苑,百花慑于皇威纷纷开放,惟独牡丹不从,宁可发配洛阳。如今怎么就能让牡丹轻易改了性子?

于是你面对绿色的牡丹园,只能竭尽你想象的空间。想象它在阳光与温暖中火热的激情;想象它在春晖里的辉煌与灿烂——牡丹开花时犹如解冻的大江,一夜间千朵万朵纵情怒放,排山倒海惊天动地。那般恣意那般宏伟,那般壮丽那般浩荡。它积蓄了整整一年的精气,都在这短短几天中轰轰烈烈地迸发出来。它不开则已,一开则倾其所有挥洒净尽,终要开得一个倾国倾城,国色天香。    

你也许在梦中曾亲吻过那些赤橙黄绿青蓝紫的花瓣,而此刻你须在想象中创造姚黄魏紫豆绿墨撒金白雪塔铜雀春锦帐芙蓉烟绒紫首案红火炼金丹……想象花开时节洛阳城上空被牡丹映照的五彩祥云;想象微风夜露中颤动的牡丹花香;想象被花气濡染的树和房屋;想象洛阳城延续了一千多年的“花开花落二十日,满城人人皆若狂”之盛况。想象给予你失望的纪念,给予你来年的安慰与希望。牡丹为自己营造了神秘与完美——恰恰在没有牡丹的日子里,你探访了窥视了牡丹的个性。

其实你在很久以前并不喜欢牡丹。因为它总被人作为富贵膜拜。后来你目睹了一次牡丹的落花,你相信所有的人都会为之感动:

一阵清风徐来,娇艳鲜嫩的盛期牡丹忽然整朵整朵地坠落,铺散一地绚丽的花瓣。那花瓣落地时依然鲜艳夺目,如同一只被奉上祭坛的大鸟脱落的羽毛,低吟着壮烈的悲歌离去。牡丹没有花谢花败之时,要么烁于枝头,要么归于泥土,它跨越萎顿和衰老,由青春而死亡,由美丽而消遁。它虽美却不吝惜生命,即使告别也要留给人最后一次惊心动魄的体味。

所以在这阴冷的四月里,奇迹不会发生。任凭游人扫兴和诅咒,牡丹依然安之若素。它不苟且不俯就不妥协不媚俗,它遵循自己的花期自己的规律,它有权利为自己选择每年一度的盛大节日。它为什么不拒绝寒冷?!

天南海北的看花人,依然络绎不绝地涌入洛阳城。人们不会因牡丹的拒绝而拒绝它的美。如果它再被贬谪十次,也许它就会繁衍出十个洛阳牡丹城。

于是你在无言的遗憾中感悟到,富贵与高贵只是一字之差。同人一样,花儿也是有灵性、有品位之高低的。品位这东西为气为魂为筋骨为神韵只可意会。你叹服牡丹卓尔不群之姿,方知“品位”是多么容易被世人忽略或漠视的美。

PS:

读罢,甚是感动!已然不记得初中还是高中的语文课本里收藏过,即使记得,也全然不记得当时是何种心境,何种感情。毕竟那时自己少不经事,就算读了,也只是吱吱哑哑的读完,算是完成了一项任务。

而如今,意外地再次读到这篇文章时,竟会感动得潸然泪下!是此时此刻的我太过感性,还是生活让我变得更加脆弱,抑或是自己的心智已经能够全然懂得牡丹的境界?

尤其是:

一阵清风徐来,娇艳鲜嫩的盛期牡丹忽然整朵整朵地坠落,铺散一地绚丽的花瓣。那花瓣落地时依然鲜艳夺目,如同一只被奉上祭坛的大鸟脱落的羽毛,低吟着壮烈的悲歌离去。牡丹没有花谢花败之时,要么烁于枝头,要么归于泥土,它跨越萎顿和衰老,由青春而死亡,由美丽而消遁。它虽美却不吝惜生命,即使告别也要留给人最后一次惊心动魄的体味。

这一段的描写是多么的生动,多么的感人,多么的让人为之动容!

牡丹不像玫瑰,玫瑰一瓣一瓣的落下,像羽毛般轻盈因为已经干枯;也不像樱花,樱花簌簌的落下,像毛毛细雨般飘洒下来,轻盈的落在土里。

而牡丹,却是整朵整朵的坠落,那种气势足以震动所有在场观看的人。她能跨越萎顿和衰老,由美丽而死亡,这难道不是世间多少女人梦寐以求的境界。

可惜,直到现在,我都没有机会亲眼目睹牡丹的盛开和坠落,不是不想,而是不敢……因为,怕看了之后会流泪……

在夏威夷夜色海滩求婚

ANTHONY You look really beautiful, sweetheart.
EVA Thank you. You make me feel very beautiful… very special…

ANTHONY That’s because you are very special, my love.
I knew it right from the first time I met you in Hawaii.

EVA Hawaii…I am so glad that I had decided to go there ANTHONY. Or I would’ve never been able to meet you.
I cannot even imagine what my life would’ve been like without you.

ANTHONY Don’t worry. We were meant to be together sweetheart… It was pre-destined.

EVA ANTHONY, do you remember the first time when we met on the bus?
That day when we had gone sightseeing?
I had this weird feeling that you were not looking at the beautiful scenery around…

ANTHONY I’m sorry if I made you uncomfortable darling!
But I just couldn’t take my eyes off you.You looked so beautiful and so vulnerable… and yet so aloof…
You had me mesmerized.

EVA And I didn’t know whether I should feel flattered or feel annoyed.

ANTHONY Well… I am glad you weren’t too annoyed with me.
You know, I still remember every single moment that we spent together in Hawaii.
I remember the first time we held hands… the first time we kissed…
And I knew that I had fallen in love with you when we were dancing on the beach that night… under the moon…

EVA Yes. That was a very romantic evening.
I knew there was something very special happening between us…
Do you remember that last evening when we were walking on the beach?
We were supposed to return home the next day…I thought that we were never going to meet again.It almost broke my heart.

ANTHONY I felt the same way too.
And I was desperately hoping that you would agree to move to Chicago and be with me.

EVA Well… I wanted to be with you too.I think I already knew that I loved you.

ANTHONY And I was sure that I never wanted to be with anyone else in my life.

EVA ANTHONY, you are the best thing that ever happened to me.
I am so happy to be with you ANTHONY. This is the best time of my life. I love you.

LITTLE GIRL Are you Miss Stowe?
EVA Yes?
LITTLE GIRL Mr. Fitzpatrick has sent these roses for you.

EVA Mr. Fitzpatrick…ANTHONY??? You ordered these roses for me?
Why… they are beautiful…ANTHONY?! What are you doing?

ANTHONY EVA, will you marry me?

EVA Oh ANTHONY! Yes, I will marry you… I love you ANTHONY.
ANTHONY I love you too darling, now and forever…

EVA I don’t believe this ANTHONY. This is the most special moment of my life.
I will never ever forget this evening. I am so happy…

ANTHONY Tonight darling, I wanna promise you that this is just the beginning of many, many special moments in our lives together.
I give you my word that I will do everything in my power to keep you happy. Now and forever.
I promise you that we are going to have many, many years filled with joy and love ahead of us.

EVA I love you ANTHONY. I couldn’t have asked for more.

ANTHONY I love you too sweetheart. You are very special to me.

PS: This is transferred from one friend’s blog, I like the feeling, and especial:Tonight darling, I wanna promise you that this is just the beginning of many, many special moments in our lives together.
I give you my word that I will do everything in my power to keep you happy. Now and forever.
I promise you that we are going to have many, many years filled with joy and love ahead of us.

Isn’t beautiful?

Of course, it is!

Under the Weather

It has been so bitterly cold here in Pennsylvannia.

I can’t remember a winter being as cold as this, but I’m sure there were colder days.

Even though the daylight hours are growing longer minute by minute, it’s easy to find an excuse not go out unless you absolutely must, but then again I often have to push myself to accomplish things.

People I speak to have been in all kinds of nasty moods. They say they’re “under the weather”, not feeling good about this time of year.

As I stood outside with my two dogs yesterday, it was so cold that my nose and face felt crisp and my ears were stinging.

Of course, that doesn’t matter to Ricky and Lucy. They have a routine they must go through to find just the fight spot no matter how cold or hot it is.

So I wait.

But this time it was difficult. As cold as it was, I suddenly was invigorated thinking about how wonderful this extreme cold really was.

Then the sun broke though the clouds and memories of summer’s scorching hot days flashed through my mind. I could remember standing in the heat of the afternoon, sweat pouring down my brow and the hot, burning sun against my face. I reminded myself then and there that in the cold of the winter I would wish I had this heat.

I was right.

Two extremes in my life that most of the time I find uncomfortable. I normally dread them and gripe about it all the way through.

But today I was grateful for them. Without the extremes in my life, I would never appreciate the days when things were just right. Without the extremes life would be boring.

It’s being pushed to one of the extremes that makes us appreciate the middle more. Health challenges remind us that we need to pay more attention to how we live. Financial extremes remind us that when things are in excess it’s time to tuck away for when the times are lean.

So bring on the cold so I appreciate the heat more.

Make me sweat on a hot summer’s day so I wish I had a handful of snow to rub my face in.

I’ve come to the conclusion that all too often I find a reason not to be happy with where I am at that moment.

Whether it’s hot or cold, good health or bad, in the money or out of it, I always wanted it to be different.

But no more. I want to start finding a reason to be happy right where I am. Even if it’s simply the fact that I’m alive.

I’m tired of being “Under the Weather”!